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Friday, August 25th, 2006
4:58 pm
The people I work with... they're alone and scared, or bored and horny. Check my LJ, look at the first entry for "Mr. S." I think about him.
Monday, June 12th, 2006
1:24 am

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Pass this on. This is for you.

Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
5:51 pm
Please check out our community. http://www.livejournal.com/community/for_your_eyes/

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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
12:11 am
Ok. Hello. Hi.

I'm Kaylin and I have a fucked up life. I'm 15, I'm a girl, I live in Maryland. Last June, my mom died of lung cancer. That sucked and tore apart my family like you have no idea. As a result, I started smoking pot more, and I don't regret it. About 2 months ago, my dad found out I did it because I'm stupid and was talking about it in front of him. That sucked too. I got in trouble. I lost the only person that will always be there for me's trust. Good job, Kaylin. I'm socially un-acceptable. For one, I'm on the chubby side. Two, I'm on the ugly side. Guys don't like me and that's begining to get to me more and more because when you don't have your friends or family on your side, you'll always have your boyfriend. Also, after my mom died, one of my closest friends kinda alienated me. It got better but now we don't talk and it's awful. I also spend so much time getting high and drinking now that some of my friends are complaining [even though they smoke up as well] because I don't hang out with them enough. But mainly, I don't have a mom. That's rough if you're a 15 year old fuck up as it is. I wasn't really close with my mom but she was still my mommy, you know? She told me I was good enough for the right person, and things like that. Now what? Now, I'm just fat, ugly, lonly Kaylin with no mommy and a dad I fight with. . .

Current Mood: depressed
Friday, October 1st, 2004
10:59 pm
this is the third, but definatly not the last time im going to say this.. im an ass. i hurt the one and only person that means anything to me, and that cares at all about me (outside immediate family).. now im terrebly sad and hurting inside and out.. the pains that i must endure for myuself, because of myself.. im such a jerk.. i pushed her away in such a mannwer, that i am not rock bottom.. i am the bottom of those rocks... and i want everyone to know it.. i loved her, and yet i hurt her.. i hate myself.. and you all should too... thanks you for your time and patience.. goodbuy
Thursday, September 30th, 2004
8:08 pm
im in here now
as i dont feel like telling anybody i know, bieng a complete waste of my time and breath...i feel that it is a good idea to join this community(which i have).. im 15 and a male.. and until today i was number 3 on my cross country team.. and i was happy until a few days back.. when i decided to stop lying to myself and just admit it to.. at least myself.. that there realy is no point anymore.. not in trying, not in caring.. just.. nothing.. and it is actually quite good,. i can do anything i feel like and feel no bad about it, and since there is no good.. im just,.. there.. o well.. today i took hot glue and just pored it on my hand as a crowed of people watched.. nobody cared.. until later when taht one special person saw.. but that is another problem of mine.. her.. it just canmt work.. and i want it to.. for there to be a chance.. but seing as how it wont.. and there isnt.. .. i am causing great pain, emotional, to myself, to keep her from any.. im so sad... o well.. must be going to loook for other "stuff" to do. ill just use the burns on my hand...no pain, no victory.over ones self
Monday, September 20th, 2004
6:39 pm
im frank, im 15 years old..gay..ugly..looser

i hate me so much :(
i am gay..and oh so lonely..i feel like i need someone, and no one even cares about me..
my dad is a christian preecher, and my whole family is of course. christian, and I, the preecher's son,is gay..I bring shame apon my whole family..and i am soo ugly..ppl have told me.
well..so much is happening right now in my life..i odnt feel like writting about it..

Current Mood: sad
Saturday, June 7th, 2003
10:52 pm
Umm... I guess I should add that I'm a former cutter, but I stopped because.. well, I just haven't felt that bad in a while. And my family didn't take it well. Just thought I should mention that.
10:42 pm
New girl
I'm a new girl..

I've never joined a community before, but now that I have, rockbottom seems like a good one, haha. Right. So I guess the proper thing to do is to introduce myself. I'm a 15-year-old girl from Europe. I know I feel sorry for myself too much, sometimes, or, most of the time, I downright hate myself. And I hate that I hate myself. I know how childish I'm being.

So I think I belong here.

Sunday, July 7th, 2002
8:10 pm
Head's Up.
There's a virus being e-mailed to lj users and it looks like this:

Dear LiveJournal user,
We have recently noticed that you haven't updated your LiveJournal in awhile. If you would like to keep your LiveJournal account, you must sign in within the next 24 hours.
You may sign in at: {link removed} Failure to sign in within the next 24 hours will result in account termination.

Please, post this in your personal journal and in your communities, even if it's off-topic for the community. This is very important.
Thursday, April 25th, 2002
2:39 pm
every slice in to my private aea to make s ur it was coverd gave em a full blow orgasam. ad i didnt even dig that deep it was scrach.. it felt gret but sad sinfc i quit in august....argh

Sunday, April 14th, 2002
11:03 pm
my life in a boot
what i wished i would of known years ago... dont be stupid like me..learn from my mistakes, thats what i'm here for...

-stay in school...that shits importent... go to every dance/function... do activitys and join clubs... you never know when its all going to riped from you.

-dont drink... it numbs the pain, yes...but it makes it worse in the longer run

-dont smoke... thats just disgusting and a sad prolonged suicide.. theres so many other things to spend your money on

-dont do drugs... take it from me... stay away from those things... and by drugs i dont mean pot,coke, and K... i mean ALL drugs. no anti depressents or anything. you'll become dependent.. i swear

-dont do hard drugs... as apealing as heroin, meth, acid, shrooms... not only can you get adicted but they make you even more fucked up than your are now...

-wear your seat belts... dont go flying thro car windows, and it leaves a mess..

-dont start an live journal. everyone and their mom will read it and stop talking to you... cause will why waste their time talking to you when they can just read whats gonig on...

-dont have sex... you'll like it, and it leaves a mess..

-dont think that cutting, burning, or pierceing yourself in anyway is healthly or a good way to relieve stress... once you start you will not stop... it will always come back to you, alone in your dark room with your weapon of choice....and it leaves a mess..

-dont attack people with plastic forks, unless you plan on leaving a mess with lots of blood and dead eighth graders.

-do invest on a 'webster's instand word guid' and impress people with your spelling..

-do not trust or depend on anyone, they will use you. and by the time your figure out what is going on, it will be to late....

-do not learn to like being used...

most importently....

-do NOT ever fall in love.. it will hurt and be painful and leave a mess... you will cry you will want to die.. you will try to die, but then be told that you just want attention.. yeah no shit suicidal persons need fucking attention.

dont do any of that shit and you will sucide in life...dont be a fuck up like me.

i'm rejoining all my cutting comunitys, because i'm fucked up, depressed, and i dont fucking care about that stupid promise that i made anymore. fuck 4 or 5 months without cutting is a sucess, but now i dont care anymore. i want to shread my wrists to pieces. i want to do to myself what i cant do to you. i want to make my depression real and phsical and something i can see. i want to have warm blood drip off the sides of my wrist.
i dont want to move my wrists with out them acheing and bleeding. well i have alot of time to make up for... excuse me...

i'm so afraid
afraid the day will come, when i wake and find you gone...
but promised that you'd not abandon me,
and kissed my fears away...
but i woke up to that day


Current Mood: numb
5:59 am
im awake
hello im bored.. im up.. if your reading this with in an hour of its post im sure you are too. so IM me and well talk about anything.. i dont care. goofy strange normal what ever. my aol nick is SkankyJanesBlood ... im allways looking for a laugh...
Monday, February 4th, 2002
9:51 am
Friday, December 14th, 2001
4:39 pm
okay so im feeling like im crawling out of my skin.
i wanted to kick hit punch or even bite the toungs off of people today. so i opted not to join liz at her AA meeting. The first person who would assume i was an addict in denile would have become a victim to some horrors that would strike from beneath my skull.
did alot of running around today that i didnt need to. need sleep is what i need my bodys worn out but my mind just races like hot wheels around and around that damn electric track. i cant take it. im not unique there are over two million dxed and one million not just in this country with bi polar. the only diffrence is is that i can have skitzaphrinic mania and psycotic tendancys along with borderline personality disorder (Girl interrupted...(my ass !!)) i think im going to force a nap or start on art. ill leave all the family photogs here so that if i want to at four oclock in the morn i can come over here watch some tv and go through them if the net has nothing to offer. but right now i want to find that pattern to a corsest so hey you WhoreGia..if you see this or someone tells you about this i think you were the one with the addy to the page..can ya pass that my way...Thanks in advance....
today i just hate people. i cant stand them..they just irritate the hell out of me..just for breathing. they didnt do anything but i found a reason.
i keep watching this Crossing Over show about a psycic who comunicate with the dead. His name is John Edward..what is funny is thats my dads first and middle name. I miss my daddy terriably..and hes forgotten to mail my damn shit again. if i get ahold of him (wait up wait up..no violence this is your dad..)i guess ill just have to email a reminder...im decapitating gold fish crackers at the moment. damn comercial told me too...tv reception sucks out in the country you got the choice of expensive satilight dish or a one time fee of no more than 12 bucks for bunny ears. guess which i have....
all that metal gets in teh way.. but i think im gonna set it up and fill in the middle air with streched out alumunim foil and turn it in to a mini satilight.
and now i feel like im comming in between the people i live with but she says its not my fault hes irritable. so i just hide so i reap nothing of his wrath...im not here to break up a couple. im here to have a place to live, and a friend to hang with (her) and to help her with everything that needs to be done...im signing up for college and hudd and foodstamps / medicade all on monday.
i need some booty. and a joint or bong hit. along with some beer. some beer bong and booty would make the night. but alas none of them at all. in order not to screw up and get kicked out i have to stay sober on the premisis and not bring any one home to share relations with. time for sleep...or at least the good ol' college try at it.

Current Mood: stressed
Monday, November 5th, 2001
2:56 am
i got bored, and toyed around with photoshop and heres what happened:
Friday, November 2nd, 2001
7:21 pm
how skinny is too skinny?
how many bones do i have to show?
for you to except me
for you to love me

how skinny is too skinny?
how many meals do i need to skip?
for you to want to talk to me
for you to want to hug me

how skinny is too skinny?
how many hours of sleep do i need to lose?
for you to think im pretty
for you to think im something

how skinny is too skinny?
how many hairs do i need to shead?
for you to care
for you to want me
6:45 pm
this life sux and i truely don't see why we need to go on. when they just found out that the world doesn't revolve around miss popularity. so what if im different? do you really thinkg everyone was a teeny-bopper, valley girl, like you? well listen up! yeah, you at the *NSYNC concert! this world is disverse and some people dress in black and wear baggpy clothing. they don't ride around in limos but on cheap little skateboards. they don't care if they get drity. they wear ball-baring necklaces and probally make you sick. and their music is loud and not so cute. what are you gonna do now? go sit int he corner and cry? that is all you fucking preps can do b/c yur too scared yur gonna break a nail. this life sux , why do we go on? god cud end the world and we cud die. but if that happens everyone wud die..and punks don't need to die. only preps. so live up this damn life you have and let's all overrule preps
Wednesday, October 24th, 2001
11:43 pm
I found some nice sharp lancets. My life is going really well, but it's ok. sharps are always a treat. Don't ask me why. And do think I necessarily find this positive or amusing, either. Not usually, anyway.
Wednesday, October 10th, 2001
6:46 pm
well, the community seems to be dead at times

tell your friends about it, so it shall grow
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